Pre wedding therapy - Play dress up

After my pre wedding photo shoot was cancelled; me & buchuk decided we'd have fun on our own & go through with it. Seeing we had made all the necessary arrangements already & also due to the fact we were geared up too. So we headed over to Mas' house for my makeup. Nothing better than makeup therapy for me. With all the pre wedding stress building up.





Like always Mas did an excellent job. Buchuk earlier on was saying "Bie i tak nak banyak makeup sangat. I want you to look natural." uhmm...boys what do they know! hehehe! sure enough he too was impressed and happy with the make up. so we dressed up too. so lo & behold the pix below.



Darn, my battle to lose weight is still on. Can't weight to see my bridesmaids dresses.

My Bachelorette

I had the time of my life... come on y'all lets sing along.

On the 28th Of April 2007, that Saturday started of quite nicely.

The day of my bachelorette party.

My buchuk & I went to pick Mas up before heading for Langat where the party was at. Had breakfast at Darul Salam Subang, gile sedap mushroom omelette aku. Nothing beats a teh tarik early in the morning.


Then headed to Ulu Langat by way of Ampang.


Our fantastic host & hostess; the Fendi Funky & the gorgeous Hana Fart.


There is whoever 1 funny thing about my bachelorette; my buchuk, hana's buchuk & wan's buchuk was there. They duties were to make sure that the BBQ was fired up & to drive us where ever we needed to go. Wink! Right girls?!


The food was great & what was even better was...the company that day.

A time where friends meet & do what they do best...talk, giggle & laugh like there is no tomorrow.

A union of important girlfriends in my life. Truly one of the best days of my life.


The menu was:

*bbq lamb
*bbq chicken wings
*spaghetti bolognaise
*fruit salad
*fruit punch
*cupcakes
*nachos with dip (which came later on in the night. like usual Wai's salsa dip was fab!)
*ice cream with whipped cream & cherries (which came later in the night too. What a way to end a whole day of eating!)

...oh yeah supposedly coldslaw but someone was supposed to prepare it & the veges are still in Hana's fridge unprepared. Heheheh!YONNIE!!!!

It started of with me, Hana, Wan & all 3 of our buchuk hording around the bbq pit. Mas had permanently sat herself in the front row of the pit aready. Hana had made up the dining areas all nicely but we still camped at the pit. She too bummed a squat in front of it.

Around 5 past 1 me & Hana went to get Ct Sudin & Yonnie at the pick up point. When we arrived back Yonnie headed straight to the lamb & the rest was history. That's why the coldslaw was never made!!! Hehehe! nevermind cos there was still a lot of food.



All of us (finally) sat around the dining table & did what we do best talk & eat. eat & talk. laugh till cannot stop. talk. talk. yak. yak. laugh some more. Yonnie a.k.a. laughing gas made me & the rest laugh like hell. So kinda ok, lost a few calories there. Yeah right!!!

Hana being spontaneous as always come up with a BRIGHT IDEA; so we galavanted to Klang (leaving Yonnie behind...after all those lamb she was rendered unconscious) in 2 cars . Why? Because now out of a sudden...I have 4 (maybe 6...come on Wai make up your mind!!!) brides maids & 1 bride madame (si Hana yg dah kahwin tu la!!! after all it was her idea! luv u babe!). There we were at the this fantastic fabric shop, at totally good find (thanks to my mum...of course). The girls & me went wild looking at the fabrics. As usual the price of the fabrics were as fantastic as the fabrics they girls had chosen. I really can't wait to see them in their dresses. WUHOOOOO!!! My beautiful bride's maids ..oh yeah bride's maids & bride's madame.


Being girls what would a night of slumber partying do without playing with makeup? So we had a very good insight from Mas on how to sculpt & make up our eye brows.










Thank you girls for taking the time to come to the party.




To Hana, Yvonne, Wan, Mas, Siti & Wai;


I believe in angels,

The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them friends.

just a little bit sad...

when ppl talk...
i listen.

I can listen unconditonally.

when i talk...
ppl dont listen...

My Q is why cannot listen?

...just a little bit sad.

:(

LATEST PIX!

MY FAVOURITE PICTURE FOR THE 1ST HALF OF THE YEAR.

**still need to lose more.

AAARGGHH!

NYAH'S PHAB BRITT PARTY!!

It was my first time to Nyah's (Farah) party. She was one of my cool friends & one of my closest during my HSBC days. Me & my buchuk sure had fun at her party.

Shameful to admit...I did not know what the show "Little Britain" was. Nyah was going "Nyah!!! (she calls me nyah too) Tak kan ko tak tahu Little Britain kan kau ala ala British!" Aku Pakistani British la babe! HEhehehehe!

Anyhow, your cake batik was fab of course sebab ko buat & sebab i nearly bantai a lot. There goes the daily-bride-to-be-tahan-makan diet for the day.

I have not seen her in a while but she sure looks good. I guess I am not the only one who is losing weight , huh Nyah?

Ahmad was there to. HE TOOOO LOST WEIGHT & addition is his new packs (did i spell it right?).

Tis the season to be LOSING WEIGHT.

The show "HELLO ON TWO"@H.O.T.

On the set of HOT. ....as usual the biggest one there.

Me, Yusof, Lea & in the back row Rizal @ superman & Suresh.

You know when they say when ur on TV it makes you gain a few pounds...well, whoever said that was so right. I was on the HOT morning show a coule of weeks back & yup...I look bigger than a new born cow. ahhhhh....feeling good of being on tv & the feeling of dread for looking like a cow...which tipped the other? Knowing me....of course being on tv. Eventhough not many viewers but who cares. The experience was so exilirating. Yeah so what I look like a cow...at least I'm a HOT cow at that! hehehehe!

Sorry Lea for being late (got my infos wrong). She nearly popped a vein from waiting in for me on the set. Hehehe! Anyhow my 2 brother in SIFE was cool. Right Suresh & Yusof? Not to mention superman. Wished we had time to hang out.

WEDDING COUNT DOWN - 58 days more. AARGH!!!

..people will mingle. i get my tingle. wedding bells go jingle. my fat still wiggle!

hey la jingle my wiggle!

running out of days to lose weight though have lost a few. it's still not enough. mainly because i wanna look hot ...which bride doesn't? serious bored with all this losing weight s**t. i surely wish i had someone do it for me. rent-a-bod anyone?

the above photos was taken in PD during one of my trips with my fiancee & best buds last year in september i think.

A message to someone I love very dearly but maybe does not know it or feel it.

Those who choose to see what only they see would not get the bigger picture. If more than one advise is given by more than one person then notice should be made on what is at fault & how to amend.

Dwelling in self pity does not project improvements or self development. Sympathy projected can last only so long. The after actions will depict whether the sympathy given is worthwhile.

Those who care are looked upon as a stranger & the advise goes on deaf ears. Those who give love & care is misinterpret & is talked about badly.

Love & care does is not shown directly most of the time, hence lost in translation.

Part 1 - Sham ... the fiancee

The fiancee...seriously weird just plainly because it doesn't sound right. Prefer to call him my baby boyf or 'laki aku'. He prefers to call me 'bini aku'. Truthfully prefer to say "my husband".

My special nick for him is Buchuk/Chuk. I have to admit that I copied it of of my good friend Maya (thanks girl for not charging royalties...hehehe). His special nick for me is Bie/Baby (yeah quite common). Let me share with you something funny. He's gonna kill me when he reads this. Being human..we sometimes have the slip of tongue suppose to say something...you say something else. He does not like me to refer to him with 'engkau', 'kau', korang, etc. Understandable...everyone has their preferences. So, I was going through quite a lot of slip-of-the-tongue times. So I referred to him as the ones he didn't like. So he was like quite upset that I did not get it to my head. He went like "i don't call you names you don't like". Ok so i try to mentally change gears to accommodate. Then this happened; I really think god was turning the table on us, I was engrossed in something when from behind me he called me "Bie!". I was not aware that he was calling me. Again he eagerly called "Baby!". I still did not pay attention to him. This of course stressed him even more, so finally he called "Babi!". Of course this was his slip. This was when of course I jumped up & said "how could you!!!!!!!!!!". Then both of us laugh liked hell. He said "tu la pekak lagi!" Sampai hati... That always makes us laugh whenever we talk about it. These are one of the tons of funny things we go through or do together.

Sigh....

One of god's gifts to me my baby Sham. It may sound a bit cliche but its not. To appreciate one, one must know how. To know someone is to love someone...now that's cliche! Hehehe! How we got to know each other during the duration of 6 years was though quite normal but all enjoyable with also its fair share of ups and downs. Having been given this chance to get to know him I too had sometimes exploited this chance to make him really see the worst & the best of me. They say the only person that can see the best & the worst of someone is the person they love. Me & my sayang has gone through a lot; the best & the worst of ourselves. What we experienced is still the tip of the iceberg. We are very well aware that there is more to life to endure as time passes. Different situations will call for different maneuver. These situations would either make or break our relationship. We are at the moment & for the past few years very much in love with each other. Having said that, what we feel now would not determined the rest of our lives. It is comforting to know that for now; we vow to stay together no matter what. We do not want to be too wishful as to be 100% certain that our bond will never change. We feel that it won't but being aware of this we bring ourselves back down to the ground. We tell each other that we would need to work to keep this relationship the way we want to keep it.

With a few relationships under my belt...Sham is definitely my first love. I define the word love quite strongly. The word carries a very heavy meaning. My past relationships does not define love only likes & crushes. The word love in my personal definition is synonymous with sacrifice, tolerance, understanding, appreciating, compassionate, kind, caring, protection, family, reciprocate, romantic. Quite a few requirements there before the feeling is defined as love.

I hate to think that a lot of people takes the sanctity of marriage or relationship lightly. When that happens in most instances...family crumbles. 'Nauzubillah'/God forbid if that were ever to happen to me or any other of my loved ones. We have discussed/talked/fought of many things relating to our relationship. Our fights makes our relationship closer. We get to know more of each other. Though the hard way. Thank god our fights though intense at times does not leave us sore with each other. After our fights we patch up quite fast. He'll usually go "Bie lapar tak?", "Bie jom gie Mid Valley?" or "Bie I nak beli baju keje. Jom!". Alhamdulillah.

More things to tell....

cannot afford to go ...loco.

...out of the question.

PERIOD!

the most precious person-other-than-my-familiy - the series

I will be blogging appreciation to people who are important in my life other than my family. This is an attempt to make me appreciate them more. Once its out in my blog..I would read it over & over (who doesn't read their own blog, eh?).

rough patch...

Life can be like a bed of roses... for a while. Life too needs to be fair & balanced So there's the bed roses & the bed of nails/rough patch.

Yup...

...I am going through a bit of a rough patch.

Everyone has problems. Even a dead guy has problems; heaven or hell, sir?

I have my dose of problems that I can still cater to & don't bring me down. At the moment there are things that are falling down like dominoes (thank god not falling like a house of cards). Bit by bit. It started with the missing of my baby camera Sony Cybershot T3. Its was a gift from my Sham (my fiancee). Then another, another, another. A silver lining appears then dark clouds starts to form around the lining. After having a moment to myself to recap & to think straight. Other ppl have bigger issues. My mind suddenly falls onto my sick friend the one with SLE. MY problems stay has ways to be solved. My dear friend, may Allah give you strength to heal faster. May Allah bless me with the mind to think straight & resourcefully.

To be a coward would be to think of/wishing away the problem. Who doesn't want to do that or think that. Who has not thought about it?! My mind is racing with ways to get things solved. My problems are like a piece of chip of the iceberg that melts in your hands. I would like to consider my problems is as such...not too big like the TIP. Then again when I reevaluate my problem I feel its the TIP. But I don't want to see it as that ... the heavier the problem the heavier the impact.

Need to get things sorted.

Adios me com padres.

So many people, number of good people...so little.

I am very blessed with having lots of friends. Through time, friends can be categorised in a few columns..preference would be in the hands of those who are setting the columns up.

Friends in my life have made me go through many emotional roller coasters. Mind you, I do not favor roller coaster rides of any kind due to my 'thing' for heights but then I do make allowance one in a while. Life experiences will make you what you are. Change your judgement, your views and opinion. I would say that though I went through crappy friendship at least I ended up less vulnerable to my friends & if not more experience in what to expect. Those who know me; will know I will go the extra mile for my friends. As long as I am able to. This however is not to the liking of my better half (Sham@fiancee). This leaves me open to those taking opportunity on me. With the past experience over; I do still help my friends ...but they are screened first. Then again sometimes I don't screen. That is what I am. I truly feel a good deed can be done ...provided not impossible. My parents brought me up that way. Though they too sometimes question why I am helping so & so so much; I do it anyway. I feel nice doing it..eventhough tire me out.

What goes a round comes around. Right Alicia K?

I am thankful that when I am in a helpful mode to help my friends my Sham will be there to help me help my friends out. My dear Sham. One of my fabulous godsend to me.

There are so many people who like to receive out there. Hello!!! Give too, OK! I have a few of these people a.k.a friends. But hey! Everyone is human but all the hearts are different. You can't change what doesn't want to be changed in the 1st place. Its really not that hard,really. It just take a bit of civic mindedness. Then again not everyone open themselves to know/acknowledge this. Its mostly about themselves & just the things around them.

10 points to those who know whta these people are called!

May the world give birth to more considered people, so the world would be a better place & not come to an end anytime soon. . .is this too much of a wishful thinking.