Part 1 - Sham ... the fiancee

The fiancee...seriously weird just plainly because it doesn't sound right. Prefer to call him my baby boyf or 'laki aku'. He prefers to call me 'bini aku'. Truthfully prefer to say "my husband".

My special nick for him is Buchuk/Chuk. I have to admit that I copied it of of my good friend Maya (thanks girl for not charging royalties...hehehe). His special nick for me is Bie/Baby (yeah quite common). Let me share with you something funny. He's gonna kill me when he reads this. Being human..we sometimes have the slip of tongue suppose to say something...you say something else. He does not like me to refer to him with 'engkau', 'kau', korang, etc. Understandable...everyone has their preferences. So, I was going through quite a lot of slip-of-the-tongue times. So I referred to him as the ones he didn't like. So he was like quite upset that I did not get it to my head. He went like "i don't call you names you don't like". Ok so i try to mentally change gears to accommodate. Then this happened; I really think god was turning the table on us, I was engrossed in something when from behind me he called me "Bie!". I was not aware that he was calling me. Again he eagerly called "Baby!". I still did not pay attention to him. This of course stressed him even more, so finally he called "Babi!". Of course this was his slip. This was when of course I jumped up & said "how could you!!!!!!!!!!". Then both of us laugh liked hell. He said "tu la pekak lagi!" Sampai hati... That always makes us laugh whenever we talk about it. These are one of the tons of funny things we go through or do together.

Sigh....

One of god's gifts to me my baby Sham. It may sound a bit cliche but its not. To appreciate one, one must know how. To know someone is to love someone...now that's cliche! Hehehe! How we got to know each other during the duration of 6 years was though quite normal but all enjoyable with also its fair share of ups and downs. Having been given this chance to get to know him I too had sometimes exploited this chance to make him really see the worst & the best of me. They say the only person that can see the best & the worst of someone is the person they love. Me & my sayang has gone through a lot; the best & the worst of ourselves. What we experienced is still the tip of the iceberg. We are very well aware that there is more to life to endure as time passes. Different situations will call for different maneuver. These situations would either make or break our relationship. We are at the moment & for the past few years very much in love with each other. Having said that, what we feel now would not determined the rest of our lives. It is comforting to know that for now; we vow to stay together no matter what. We do not want to be too wishful as to be 100% certain that our bond will never change. We feel that it won't but being aware of this we bring ourselves back down to the ground. We tell each other that we would need to work to keep this relationship the way we want to keep it.

With a few relationships under my belt...Sham is definitely my first love. I define the word love quite strongly. The word carries a very heavy meaning. My past relationships does not define love only likes & crushes. The word love in my personal definition is synonymous with sacrifice, tolerance, understanding, appreciating, compassionate, kind, caring, protection, family, reciprocate, romantic. Quite a few requirements there before the feeling is defined as love.

I hate to think that a lot of people takes the sanctity of marriage or relationship lightly. When that happens in most instances...family crumbles. 'Nauzubillah'/God forbid if that were ever to happen to me or any other of my loved ones. We have discussed/talked/fought of many things relating to our relationship. Our fights makes our relationship closer. We get to know more of each other. Though the hard way. Thank god our fights though intense at times does not leave us sore with each other. After our fights we patch up quite fast. He'll usually go "Bie lapar tak?", "Bie jom gie Mid Valley?" or "Bie I nak beli baju keje. Jom!". Alhamdulillah.

More things to tell....

cannot afford to go ...loco.

...out of the question.

PERIOD!

the most precious person-other-than-my-familiy - the series

I will be blogging appreciation to people who are important in my life other than my family. This is an attempt to make me appreciate them more. Once its out in my blog..I would read it over & over (who doesn't read their own blog, eh?).

rough patch...

Life can be like a bed of roses... for a while. Life too needs to be fair & balanced So there's the bed roses & the bed of nails/rough patch.

Yup...

...I am going through a bit of a rough patch.

Everyone has problems. Even a dead guy has problems; heaven or hell, sir?

I have my dose of problems that I can still cater to & don't bring me down. At the moment there are things that are falling down like dominoes (thank god not falling like a house of cards). Bit by bit. It started with the missing of my baby camera Sony Cybershot T3. Its was a gift from my Sham (my fiancee). Then another, another, another. A silver lining appears then dark clouds starts to form around the lining. After having a moment to myself to recap & to think straight. Other ppl have bigger issues. My mind suddenly falls onto my sick friend the one with SLE. MY problems stay has ways to be solved. My dear friend, may Allah give you strength to heal faster. May Allah bless me with the mind to think straight & resourcefully.

To be a coward would be to think of/wishing away the problem. Who doesn't want to do that or think that. Who has not thought about it?! My mind is racing with ways to get things solved. My problems are like a piece of chip of the iceberg that melts in your hands. I would like to consider my problems is as such...not too big like the TIP. Then again when I reevaluate my problem I feel its the TIP. But I don't want to see it as that ... the heavier the problem the heavier the impact.

Need to get things sorted.

Adios me com padres.

So many people, number of good people...so little.

I am very blessed with having lots of friends. Through time, friends can be categorised in a few columns..preference would be in the hands of those who are setting the columns up.

Friends in my life have made me go through many emotional roller coasters. Mind you, I do not favor roller coaster rides of any kind due to my 'thing' for heights but then I do make allowance one in a while. Life experiences will make you what you are. Change your judgement, your views and opinion. I would say that though I went through crappy friendship at least I ended up less vulnerable to my friends & if not more experience in what to expect. Those who know me; will know I will go the extra mile for my friends. As long as I am able to. This however is not to the liking of my better half (Sham@fiancee). This leaves me open to those taking opportunity on me. With the past experience over; I do still help my friends ...but they are screened first. Then again sometimes I don't screen. That is what I am. I truly feel a good deed can be done ...provided not impossible. My parents brought me up that way. Though they too sometimes question why I am helping so & so so much; I do it anyway. I feel nice doing it..eventhough tire me out.

What goes a round comes around. Right Alicia K?

I am thankful that when I am in a helpful mode to help my friends my Sham will be there to help me help my friends out. My dear Sham. One of my fabulous godsend to me.

There are so many people who like to receive out there. Hello!!! Give too, OK! I have a few of these people a.k.a friends. But hey! Everyone is human but all the hearts are different. You can't change what doesn't want to be changed in the 1st place. Its really not that hard,really. It just take a bit of civic mindedness. Then again not everyone open themselves to know/acknowledge this. Its mostly about themselves & just the things around them.

10 points to those who know whta these people are called!

May the world give birth to more considered people, so the world would be a better place & not come to an end anytime soon. . .is this too much of a wishful thinking.