Part 1 - Sham ... the fiancee

The fiancee...seriously weird just plainly because it doesn't sound right. Prefer to call him my baby boyf or 'laki aku'. He prefers to call me 'bini aku'. Truthfully prefer to say "my husband".

My special nick for him is Buchuk/Chuk. I have to admit that I copied it of of my good friend Maya (thanks girl for not charging royalties...hehehe). His special nick for me is Bie/Baby (yeah quite common). Let me share with you something funny. He's gonna kill me when he reads this. Being human..we sometimes have the slip of tongue suppose to say something...you say something else. He does not like me to refer to him with 'engkau', 'kau', korang, etc. Understandable...everyone has their preferences. So, I was going through quite a lot of slip-of-the-tongue times. So I referred to him as the ones he didn't like. So he was like quite upset that I did not get it to my head. He went like "i don't call you names you don't like". Ok so i try to mentally change gears to accommodate. Then this happened; I really think god was turning the table on us, I was engrossed in something when from behind me he called me "Bie!". I was not aware that he was calling me. Again he eagerly called "Baby!". I still did not pay attention to him. This of course stressed him even more, so finally he called "Babi!". Of course this was his slip. This was when of course I jumped up & said "how could you!!!!!!!!!!". Then both of us laugh liked hell. He said "tu la pekak lagi!" Sampai hati... That always makes us laugh whenever we talk about it. These are one of the tons of funny things we go through or do together.

Sigh....

One of god's gifts to me my baby Sham. It may sound a bit cliche but its not. To appreciate one, one must know how. To know someone is to love someone...now that's cliche! Hehehe! How we got to know each other during the duration of 6 years was though quite normal but all enjoyable with also its fair share of ups and downs. Having been given this chance to get to know him I too had sometimes exploited this chance to make him really see the worst & the best of me. They say the only person that can see the best & the worst of someone is the person they love. Me & my sayang has gone through a lot; the best & the worst of ourselves. What we experienced is still the tip of the iceberg. We are very well aware that there is more to life to endure as time passes. Different situations will call for different maneuver. These situations would either make or break our relationship. We are at the moment & for the past few years very much in love with each other. Having said that, what we feel now would not determined the rest of our lives. It is comforting to know that for now; we vow to stay together no matter what. We do not want to be too wishful as to be 100% certain that our bond will never change. We feel that it won't but being aware of this we bring ourselves back down to the ground. We tell each other that we would need to work to keep this relationship the way we want to keep it.

With a few relationships under my belt...Sham is definitely my first love. I define the word love quite strongly. The word carries a very heavy meaning. My past relationships does not define love only likes & crushes. The word love in my personal definition is synonymous with sacrifice, tolerance, understanding, appreciating, compassionate, kind, caring, protection, family, reciprocate, romantic. Quite a few requirements there before the feeling is defined as love.

I hate to think that a lot of people takes the sanctity of marriage or relationship lightly. When that happens in most instances...family crumbles. 'Nauzubillah'/God forbid if that were ever to happen to me or any other of my loved ones. We have discussed/talked/fought of many things relating to our relationship. Our fights makes our relationship closer. We get to know more of each other. Though the hard way. Thank god our fights though intense at times does not leave us sore with each other. After our fights we patch up quite fast. He'll usually go "Bie lapar tak?", "Bie jom gie Mid Valley?" or "Bie I nak beli baju keje. Jom!". Alhamdulillah.

More things to tell....